3 posts tagged “me”

There is something to be said about a parent who chooses to be honest with their child, instead of spoon feed them bullshit. As of late I've been checking myself, really checking myself. I mean I don't think I'm all that bad of a person, and sometimes I'm not all that great of one either. But recently I've had the urge to know how other people view me, especially since nine times out of ten I don't see in myself what they see in me. So, I've been casually talking to those who know me best and those who've known me for a little while and what not to get their honest opinion about some things. What I discovered is that about half the time I think there's something wrong with me, I'm wrong.

I spoke with one of my exes the other day and asked if she missed me, and if so what did she miss about me. It wasn't that I was trying to start something back up with her, but some time ago she'd posed the same question to me. Back then I still felt a kind of way about her and the whole of the situation and wasn't all that nice in my response. So, I was a bit surprised that she was willing to talk with me and supply an honest answer. She said that sometimes she did miss me, that she like that I was different and caring. What made me see her in a new light was when she told me at the time she didn't know what she had and wasn't ready for me, taking full responsibility for how things ended. Interestingly enough, having this conversation with her made me feel better about myself and also made me want to review other relationships I have and have had.

For some reason my mother doesn't like a particular friend of mind. I asked her a few months ago why and she gave me some bullshit answer, that I immediately tore down and voiced what I really thought was going on. Turns out I was only half right. I asked her last night again, what her issue with my friend was, and finally got the truth. Even though my mother and I are not at all close, in no way, shape, or form does she want me to be hurt. Other dating situations and romantic relationships I've had she thought were a flash in a pan. And long distance posed no real threat of someone "taking me away". However, with someone being in such close proximity and me spending a considerable amount of time with that person, my mother became jealous. Especially when it came to my car. Everyone knows, I don't let anyone drive my car. Absolutely NO one, with the exception of Smack who has the same kind of car. Well I not only let my friend drive my car, I gave her one of my spare keys. Understand that if I didn't trust her, none of this would have ever taken place. And I explained this to my mom. This is literally her issue not mine, to which she agrees. And has said that it'll take time for her to work it out. As whacked as my mom can be, whether silly or not I appreciate her honesty. The less bullshit busting I have to do the better.

No one goes through life wanting to get hurt or be taken advantage of by anyone. And people also don't want to feel as if they're constantly depending upon a crutch to stand on their own. But since the future is unforeseen, because it has yet to happen, absolutely anything is possible. Taking risks to liven up this adventure called life is what makes it interesting. I don't want to sitting on the couch one day going over the "what ifs" or brooding over regrets. Which is why I'm leaving myself open for whatever life has to offer and keeping my eyes peeled for the fakes. There's nothing worse then a bad investment no matter whether it's time or money. The only thing that's certain is that there's always something to learn from these experiences. And I hope I've gathered enough to stop making the same lame mistakes.

So I went one step further and decided to check out what my name says about me. Here's what I discovered:

There are 17 letters in your name.
Those 17 letters total to 79
There are 8 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.
 
What your first name means:

Your number is: 7

The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:
Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7. The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

What does your name say about you?

Since The Universe has so much to say I've decided I'll share that in a weekly digest, unless I run out of stuff to write about (and that's highly unlikely). Here's something interesting that just fell into my lap. I received a forward a while ago about a Birthday Calculator. Here's what it said about me:

May 26, 1980

Your date of conception was on or about 3 September 1979 which was a Monday.

You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Gemini.
Your Life path number is 4.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Love is the only medicine for a broken heart.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 6 & 7.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 3, 5 & 9.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2444385.5.
The golden number for 1980 is 5.
The epact number for 1980 is 13.
The year 1980 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/16/1980 and ending 2/4/1981.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Monkey.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Elk; your plant is Mullein.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Mesore, the fourth month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 11 Sivan 5740.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 12 Sivan 5740.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.6.17.1 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 6 tun 17 uinal 1 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 11 Rajab 1400 (1400-7-11).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 6 April 1980.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 6 April 1980.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 20 February 1980.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1980.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 1 June 1980.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Thursday, 11 September 1980.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 1 April 1980.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 19 February 1980.
 
As of 3/16/2009 7:38:28 PM EDT
You are 28 years old.
You are 346 months old.
You are 1,503 weeks old.
You are 10,521 days old.
You are 252,523 hours old.
You are 15,151,418 minutes old.
You are 909,085,108 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Your lucky day is Wednesday.
Your lucky number is 5.
Your ruling planet(s) is Mercury.
Your lucky dates are 5th, 14th, 23rd.
Your opposition sign is Sagittarious.
Your opposition number(s) is 3.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 71 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 29 candles.

Those 29 candles produce 29 BTUs,
or 7,308 calories of heat (that's only 7.3080 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.31 US ounces of water with that many candles.  

In 1980 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1980 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1980 in the US there were 2,406,708 marriages (10.6%) and 1,182,000 divorces (5.2%)
In 1980 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1980 the population of Australia was approximately 14,807,370.
In 1980 there were approximately 225,527 births in Australia.
In 1980 in Australia there were approximately 109,240 marriages and 39,257 divorces.
In 1980 in Australia there were approximately 108,695 deaths.

Your birth flower is LILY

Your birthstone is Emerald

The Mystical properties of Emerald

Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Emerald is used for physical and emotional healing.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Agate, Chrysoprase

Ash Tree, the Ambition

Uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with its fate, can be egoistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over heart, but takes partnership very serious.

What do you think the Birthday Calculator would say about you?